Missing Substance

I miss substance in my life. Long talks about things that challenge my thinking...To be fair, I most often don't want to talk about shallow topics like beauty/style/fashion. I mean, it's cool to scroll through pics but I think I'm missing balance. A balance that social media can't cure. No one wants to talk about books,culture,stigmas,finances,business etc. it's as of real life has become taboo?  I'm probably just "going through a phase" but I don't have those friends to call up and go over my business plan with or talk about my  feelings to...

What's worse is that I'm to blame. I'm a hard person to befriend. Or I'm looked to as the one with the answers. I feel like I need another outlet. Another community for my real life topics b/c truth is, few of my followers really "care" about these things. They only want to know when my website will be back up 😒

Thing is, I want to have conversation with people. Not only exchange comments, but where do you get that when you are all alone in a city and most people don't care to talk about these things?

I think social media is great for entertainment but it is just not fueling my need for real life conversations about not so shallow things.

I thought about visiting a church maybe? I'm just stuck in a HUGE uninspired,stand still, RUT.